In my lesson of the battle of the mind, I had just renounced, and learned the very power of our words, by breaking up with what I had thought was who I was. God was reorganizing me into what He had planned as my original make of His hands. I was in a series of lessons within His way of teaching me. I had thoughts in my mind that did not belong there with my God design. You see, I use to struggle with sickness in my stomach. Whether my doing, or an overpass of the enemy, sickness was there. I, waiting for my children to be noticeable through a pregnancy test, would truly be tormented whenever my stomach would ache. Id come in agreement with thoughts that I was a failure of helping my body, and that I was not going to have children until I took care of this. I was tormented with every burp, every nauseous feeling, every acid reflux, every headache. I felt like a failure, and hopeless in my part of life.
This was a set of lies exposed when I overcame sickness in the spirit with the name of Jesus. However the sickness was packaged, my fault or not, It was overcome by the blood of Jesus, and His holy name. Before this healing I had to fight. I had to fight for my peace to be unwell. I remember learning the evil mindsets. His gentle teaching bringing to the surface the aches of these thoughts. I remember the hardest day and the last of the torment, was when I was crying to God, I was repenting. I was telling Him Im sorry if I have failed. I also felt Him gently expose the lies. That the sickness was not where the pain was, it was the mind. I played worship music and for once it did not give. Until I blasted the audio bible. I went for a drive and got my favorite drive thru drink and just meditated on His word, just driving and the Bible. Hours of stubborn resistance it broke at His word. His word washed me clean. His truth set me free. His word transformed my mind. I knew He had given me the victory, I knew when it broke. He had taught me His goodness and exposed the lies. Now I know even when we fail, the enemy comes to shame us, He comes to guilt us, He comes to add weight to any pain. He wants to choke out any hope. But in Gods word it says,
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NLT
I am weak. I do fail, but however God wants to deal with me in my weakness, He gets all the Glory when He does what only He can do. He has healed me, but if He had not, He would still be all that worthy of all the praises, and all the suffering of being His, He has done enough with His son’s sacrifice. More than enough. And yet He chose to free my mind, And yet He chose to heal my body, And yet He has promised children. This is an outpouring of my weakness, that He has made His moves of STRENGTH and POWER, that HE gets ALL the GLORY.
“Jesus said to the people who believed in him, “You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.””
“And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”
Philippians 4:8 NLT
So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death. The law of Moses was unable to save us because of the weakness of our sinful nature. So God did what the law could not do. He sent his own Son in a body like the bodies we sinners have. And in that body God declared an end to sin’s control over us by giving his Son as a sacrifice for our sins. He did this so that the just requirement of the law would be fully satisfied for us, who no longer follow our sinful nature but instead follow the Spirit.”