My Battle of the Mind

In my lesson of the battle of the mind, I had just renounced, and learned the very power of our words, by breaking up with what I had thought was who I was. God was reorganizing me into what He had planned as my original make of His hands. I was in a series of lessons within His way of teaching me. I had thoughts in my mind that did not belong there with my God design. You see, I use to struggle with sickness in my stomach. Whether my doing, or an overpass of the enemy, sickness was there. I, waiting for my children to be noticeable through a pregnancy test, would truly be tormented whenever my stomach would ache. Id come in agreement with thoughts that I was a failure of helping my body, and that I was not going to have children until I took care of this. I was tormented with every burp, every nauseous feeling, every acid reflux, every headache. I felt like a failure, and hopeless in my part of life.

This was a set of lies exposed when I overcame sickness in the spirit with the name of Jesus. However the sickness was packaged, my fault or not, It was overcome by the blood of Jesus, and His holy name. Before this healing I had to fight. I had to fight for my peace to be unwell. I remember learning the evil mindsets. His gentle teaching bringing to the surface the aches of these thoughts. I remember the hardest day and the last of the torment, was when I was crying to God, I was repenting. I was telling Him Im sorry if I have failed. I also felt Him gently expose the lies. That the sickness was not where the pain was, it was the mind. I played worship music and for once it did not give. Until I blasted the audio bible. I went for a drive and got my favorite drive thru drink and just meditated on His word, just driving and the Bible. Hours of stubborn resistance it broke at His word. His word washed me clean. His truth set me free. His word transformed my mind. I knew He had given me the victory, I knew when it broke. He had taught me His goodness and exposed the lies. Now I know even when we fail, the enemy comes to shame us, He comes to guilt us, He comes to add weight to any pain. He wants to choke out any hope. But in Gods word it says,

“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NLT

I am weak. I do fail, but however God wants to deal with me in my weakness, He gets all the Glory when He does what only He can do. He has healed me, but if He had not, He would still be all that worthy of all the praises, and all the suffering of being His, He has done enough with His son’s sacrifice. More than enough. And yet He chose to free my mind, And yet He chose to heal my body, And yet He has promised children. This is an outpouring of my weakness, that He has made His moves of STRENGTH and POWER, that HE gets ALL the GLORY.

“Jesus said to the people who believed in him, “You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.””
John 8:31-32

“And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”
Philippians 4:8 NLT

So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death. The law of Moses was unable to save us because of the weakness of our sinful nature. So God did what the law could not do. He sent his own Son in a body like the bodies we sinners have. And in that body God declared an end to sin’s control over us by giving his Son as a sacrifice for our sins. He did this so that the just requirement of the law would be fully satisfied for us, who no longer follow our sinful nature but instead follow the Spirit.”
Romans 8:1-4

God heals my dog.

We all have a story to tell. Stories upon stories, upon stories. I have a library full, and not just that, I have collected from many. Those that have given us the honor to hear, what they have heard, seen, and lived through, I have filed away to give me hope. I love hearing real events and what God said or did about it. Even if I haven’t heard your redeeming part, I know that I am in the middle of your testimony, God can reveal roots and healing even in the middle of your testimony. This is where hope arises, in the beginning, in the middle and in the complete version of your story. Hope arises.

When I see brokenness, I see Jesus healing you. When I see the impossible, I see Jesus doing the impossible. How can I not love Jesus, when He is the reason for hope.

Here is a testimony

I have a dog, a ten year old dog, with a lot of attitude. I had him with my outside dog for several years although he was originally an indoor dog. We changed locations a few times and living situations didn’t allow him indoors, and during this time he started with ear infections, his breed didn’t make this transition run smoothly. His ear infections would come and go when spring would break out, or on windy days. It was manageable at first, but as he got older it got harder to work with him, he squirmed and almost bit us every time we tried putting any medicine in his ear. We finally took him in to sedate him for his ear treatment, knowing it was going to be costly. It was, and his ear didn’t get better, they sat us down and began to share that to go further it would cost us 4,000 dollars, they explained if we didn’t go further that it would be like doggy hospice. We knew this wasn’t a promised healing journey so we decided not to go that route with that big bill. His ear improved just a little and regressed.

We were discouraged. I decided to pray like I had prayed over my stomach months before, I had miraculously got healed just laying hands over my stomach in Jesus name. Coming against shame and doubt I spoke to my dogs body and commanded order for his ear in Jesus name. Nothing happened that I could see. God had a plan and I hadn’t known yet. I didn’t know, so I would sleep and wake up with heaviness and shame, that my dog could die and that it was my fault, I recognize this hard stance. I had this with my stomach as well when I was sick daily. Shame, doubt and guilt were no comfort and had been there when I was sick and now there when my dog was sick. My dog had siblings that were doing great and healthy, and mine was sick. I felt like a failure.

But then……God gave me a dream, of course He would, this is how he interrupts me with good news. So the dream goes like this, I was with my dog, something attacked him, and killed my dog. I lifted him and he was limp and dead. I then declared, “In Jesus name, In Jesus name, In Jesus name and he came to life. My dog was alive” I woke up. I first considered it was a soul dream. Soul dreams are generally just dreams you have that are not directly from God or the enemy. But I decided right there that I would lean into what I just dreamt about as a God dream. Why? Because it brought hope. At this time my dog was vomiting, weak, sleeping all the time, and his ear was smelly and kept discharging. My husband was discouraged when he saw him, and he spoke, “Honey, you know we have to prepare ourselves, he’s old and sick” In that moment I decided to say no to sickness. I didn’t want to hear that of course not. But I said, “I don’t want logic, I want faith right now, If I cant redeem faith for my dog its ok, but I want to use faith while he is alive, this is where it will count” Did I have faith? No, But this is what rose up in me with refusal to quit in this moment. Hope was arising. Wanting to see if the dream was from God, I shared it with my husband. I knew it sounded odd, that a dog could be redeemed. I know I had prayed before and nothing shifted for him, but that dream.

My mom came over and she came with hope. She started to tell me my dogs dad had the same issues. She shared with me her vet, the one that healed her dog. I googled all my dogs symptoms the vomit too, and even google gave me hope. Every description I gave to google, gave a name and solution. Im sure we all know how deadly google can be, so I felt even this was a miracle, that google would be doing this. Yet the vet prior delivered a death report. I told my husband immediately and we booked him to my moms veterinarian. It was not local, but we gave this journey to God. All of it. When we showed up, I already knew as soon as the veterinarian gave us instructions, that it was set in Gods hand. Healing has begun. Weeks of heaviness was lifted. I was full of hope and faith even more. My dog still being sick but on real recovery and affordable. I don’t mind healing being a journey. In fact aren’t we all on a journey of redemption with God. But I knew as my dog was being diagnosed, I could truly feel not just hope, but a faith so strong. It was going to carry me to the fullness of his healing.

Before I forget, God also included this moment, there was a whisper from God, to encourage me. It was “Have I said no to you?” My first thought was a few people that I haven’t seen completely healed, maybe assumed forgotten by God, But as I scanned for all my impossible situations, I realized He has also spoke on those through a dream. I hadn’t aligned them yet to see and process with faith. But they were dreamt. The plans God had were dreamt. What can a girl do in this situation. Can I truly be hearing this from God, “Have I said no to you?” Sometimes waiting for a healing feels like a no, but it is not, waiting is still a hopeful yes. I have not experienced a true no from God since Ive been His. Perhaps he has said no, Even Gods no’s are better than a yes that will hurt us. What God was doing is getting me to see what I was waiting for. The long waits pointed to Gods heart. That he is better than me, and that most of my waiting’s, were aligned with desires He literally put in my heart to expect. How could He say no when it is in His word that He will do it. Healing is His plan. Redemption is His plan. Hope is His plan. I believe this dog situation may not have pointed to a specific scripture, but it did point to His voice when I had that dream,

God Has taught me a lot. For one, If He could do it for a dog… my dog, He could do it for you. “What is the report of the Lord” is my new declaration whenever there is a bad report, what is the report of the Lord and what does His word say.

Update on my dog, he no longer has an infection in his ear, no discharge or vomiting. God is still healing his jaw, but Ive already redeemed the faith and the hope, the heaviness is gone, the doubt is gone, the shame is gone in Jesus name. He healed my dog. The end

“All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is by his great mercy that we have been born again, because God raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Now we live with great expectation,” 1 Peter 1:3

“And his name will be the hope of all the world.” Matthew 12:21

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

“But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.)” Romans 8:25

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28

“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” 1 Corinthians 13:7

He Rebuilt Me to Dream Again

I was young, and full of every sound and movie, this was my passing of time. To listen in and be inspired, to watch and be inspired. I was always a dreamer, so I would dream parts, favorite parts. Sometimes what I watched would get me to wonder about God, or life. The building up of God, movies and music, were my foundation for life. What do I want for life, What will I do in life. Will I find love like the movies, will I have fun like the movies, will I experience this like that person in the movies. Music and movies were my teacher, and God was my wonder.

Unfortunately as a teen, I would dream holy sometimes, on beauty and what could life be like with God, but I had the poorest foundation to keep it. I soon remember after a high hope in God, that I found friends. I learned to love well. But this is when I gave all my yesses to all the wrong things in search for this high hope with God. Oh the dreams I had but looking for them in all the wrong places. The experiment began, friends flooded the rooms, I loved people, I loved parties. Music played all around me, I didn’t love this music, but this became my atmosphere, slowly I began to loose a lot of how I made these friends. They came to me first because I was new, hopeful, and carried joy. And then it was transferred with heartbreak, dim, and near death experiences. The glory of the life that was being built began to look ugly, hopeless and depressing. Yes I got to sneak out and have fun at first, I got to jump in the back of a pick up truck and ride in the open air, I got to make a name for myself. But I didn’t get to make hope, I didn’t get to make Joy. All the right dreams were dying. I would look around and everything that had made it on my list of hopes, was looking impossible. Soon I found myself addicted to things that gave me nothing in return. But God. But God had remembered my first hope. And in all my mess He was building. He was building and tearing. He made sure I did not die somewhere in this timeline. I remember that day. He was even building from that. That I would live and not die and that I would hope again. A high hope, not a high on drugs or people. He built me a dream, that I could dream again.

I say this, even more because I am on the other side where Hope is alive.

Where I say no to everything that tries to kill it. No to this music, no to this movie, no to this event, no to this plan. I will stand my ground this time, because this ground I stand on is strong, and God built it. I will not leave it. It is worth all my “No’s” to keep the Yess I always wanted.


To the the one learning to hear/see/feel/know God. He is always speaking. Don’t despise the way He shows Himself to you. I remember when I was learning, a beginner in the faith. I would hear the words loosely in the church “seek His face” or “I want to see your face Lord” I did not understand. How is this? I thought. When I finally sought the kingdom for my self, I said to myself, I want to find His face.

My first search began with the Bible, It is where I learned His passions, His jealousy, His heart over matters, His thoughts about me, His desires for me, it is truly the most detailed letter you can ever ask from anyone, yet this was God revealing so much in His very alive word. His word was my foundation to start with. I still asked the question, can I see your face? Not knowing He was showing me how He wanted to. He chose to show me His face in His creation. His first words to me this way were in outcomes, He would make situations move, and align things so that I would notice it was Him. Things only He could do, and things perhaps only I could notice, personal things, desires I had etc. I realized He was alive and active, and listening and with me.

Example. After having straight F’s and Ds in college, I heard in myself a strategy and I knew it wasn’t me. I knew my own thoughts, but this strategy was from God, because I walked it out, and after having bad grades in high-school with 2 attempts at colleges full of failures, I finally Got my first straight A’s, doing what I heard from what seemed like my own thoughts. Yet In my thoughts He had obtained and spoke.

Another example. For lack of protection from man, I asked God how do I make sure a man will not break my heart again. I got a thought immediately, This thought said, “Speak for me. My daughter, speak my heart to the man. What would a good father say for his daughter if a man seeks for her? Speak that.” this was in my thoughts. I used this as soon as the time presented itself. I spoke “what are your intentions with me” and this agreement with my Father for myself bore fruit. I chose to speak and honor myself as God honored me and wanted protection for me. He also took care of the answer to this question. He sent my now Husband with the very answer to my question. The timing and the outcome was God’s moving hand for my life, my husband and my testimony. This is how He would show His face then.

What does He sound like audibly? Someone else may have that testimony. What does He look like literally? I have yet to see Him entirely. I have yet to know, but I still see Him moving, and the more I seek the more I see the different ways He speaks and shows His face. There was a time where I doubted that I had His Holy Spirit in me. For those of you who don’t know yet, there is a baptism of water, and a baptism of the Holy Spirit, where you receive His Spirit in you (Acts 1,2. Romans 8:15).

I remember my husband saying “do you feel that?”

“Feel what” I asked

“Do you feel that electric feeling in your body moving when you worship”

He couldn’t really explain it? But I knew I had a for sure no to that.

I would wonder why I do not feel what he feels. I had very much been baptized by the Holy Spirit, but for some reason this was not how I felt it, I doubted I had received the Holy Spirit but then chose to trust that I had His Spirit. The feelings present or not could not diminish the power of God in my life.

Being a follower of Jesus since 2010, 2020 I for the very first time felt a rush on my side when I was praying. A strong rush on my side, God was revealing to me that I was getting confirmation, that I was praying in the will of God. Weeks later when I made an announcement of what I felt God was leading me to do, I felt it again and strong. It increased as I moved as I usually do, not much changed about me. But the rush increase and mostly when I was in agreement with God on a matter, like prayer, or simply moving in obedience in some form of preaching or speaking. If there was a moment where the pastor teaching and preaching wanted a shout in the crowd, I would say this rush would do it for anyone needing encouragement. This feeling I get now has even increased from just my right, and now over my entire body, It is a new way for me that God speaks to me, His confirmation in my leaning towards His unction, plans and desires. Again this feeling does not make up for what is actually happening in the spirit. These responses to what is happing in the spirit are not what makes up the spirit, so many times I will allow the work of God over me even if I do not feel, hear, see, or know what He is doing. I can only imaging a great work happening and trust that He knows what I need, what He is doing and how its happening. I share this to encourage anyone who doubts who they are in the kingdom, or doubts their call, or themselves based on comparison of other very supernatural experiences. Because at the end of the day, it is fruit that we want, we want to bare fruit for the Kingdom. God still wants you there, He still wants you at the alter, He still wants you to be delivered, He still wants your worship, your speaking, your praying, your obedience, and He still very much has something to say. Take your time with His revealing in your life, explore how He is showing himself to you. I will close with this prayer,


Thank You Lord, For being alive today. Thank you Lord for knocking at our door, and waiting for us to answer, our door is open to you. Thank you Lord for being present even if we do not acknowledge you, you see all know all and are everywhere at once, and it is in your word that “Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow” James 1:17. Lord you have been speaking all along, Lord open our eyes and ears to hear. Lord however you have desired and desire now to reveal yourself Lord we welcome you. Whatever messages you have waiting, Whatever you have to say. If you have called us like Samuel, then We are your servants Lord and we are listening. If you have called us like Saul to Paul Lord, give us clarity and remove the scales from our eyes Lord. Turn it all around for good. If we have denied you because of religion, old rules, traditions or any form of denial to you Lord, just as you have said before “For I tell you this, you will never see me again until you say, “Blessings on the one who comes in the name of the Lord” Mathew 23:39 Lord we say it BLESSINGS ON THE ONE WHO COMES IN THE NAME OF THE LORD. WE SAY IT LORD. We are here. Come gather us and speak to your people Lord. Show us your beautiful face, we receive you in all the measure you desire Lord. In Jesus name AMEN.

Prayer is powerful,

Let’s make our lifestyle meet the need that we request from God. Here are some practical things you can do going forward,

Seek the Kingdom

Read the word of God

Have a praying lifestyle

“So pay attention to how you hear. To those who listen to my teaching more understanding will be given, But for those who are not listening, even what they think they understand will be taken away from then.” Luke 8:18

In other words, walk it out in obedience what you hear, listen and apply and you will see more, understand it better. He will increase what He has started with you.

Ask God questions

Ask Him now “How do you speak to me now Lord. I pray for discernment on how you want to reveal yourself in my life Jesus. Thank you in Jesus name amen”

Letting Go of Satisfactions that Hinder

I had a specific time with God several years ago where I felt Him revealing Himself to me. As if He wanted to speak more than I thought to ask. At first I wasn’t sure if any was the presence of God. But I would ask in thought, if this is you, show me this way please. He did. I considered this my Samuel moment. It was time to sit and dialogue. In this process, I was encouraged to go through a sanctification process, Where I began to clean up areas of my life that were questionable. God helped me with this. Not all of it had been obvious until God showed up in the middle of it. His presence is truly a light to our feet. I began to feel a quick response to what I called a gray area. Some were personal convictions. Some were obvious that it had no room in this life.

As we know, the plan for spring cleaning is not to get rid of spoils. That’s a daily or weekly thing. Spring cleaning is getting rid of things you enjoyed for a time, have no more time for, function, use, or need. They may even be good… good old things. Making space for the new is the general goal.

One of my things for me was questionable entertainment. If it was a TV show or a movie that had before been under question to me, I began to measure it with how my spirit felt after. Do I feel poor in spirit? Do I feel heaviness, resentment, bitter, fear, etc. Im not talking about the obvious vulgarities in the media today. My focus was now on the ones that came in a form of good, but yet it exchanged my joy for hopelessness, or impure thinking. What was my state after? And was it costing me the work that God was doing in me or through me?

I know there is still suffering in life as a Christian even when we are choosing better things in our life. Im talking about unnecessary partnership with things that made it in with no purpose, and no fruit to bear.

Here was a red flag thinking for me: “its ok, it does not effect me, I will not show it to children or my pastors or grandma, or husband”, or whoever made the list. I had to ask myself why am I not able to show this elsewhere.

If it wasn’t for what God was doing ahead of me, I may have stayed with some of these things or habits to pass the time, it felt like it did no harm. It was all personal anyways. But God doesn’t just go after what is seen. He goes after what is unseen. He goes after the personal… Because he goes after the person. When God sees a person for Himself, He doesn’t leave them in the mud. He pulls them out, cleans them up, adorns them, He displays His beauty. His prized possession, His very own people, letting the world know His glory. His victories become your victories.

A matter of the heart.
Offense was another I had to release. I can go deep with this topic, but to put it shortly: resisting offense was the strategy of keeping the door closed to unforgiveness, jealousy, hate, resentment, bitterness. It was my Godly strategy of keeping my heart clean. (Proverbs 4:23),

Removing my personal expectations of people. As God was revealing my personal issues, It literally gave me grace for others, He saw I wanted out of offense, and he exchanged it for humility, with the mindset of remembrance that I was once in their shoes. I released the judgement seat and my own justice, and came in agreement with Gods justice for the person. Many times it is grace grace grace, a lot of patience, and a lot of love. Not always bringing correction although being healthy enough to have those difficult conversations. I have had hard conversations of calling out ones sin or wrong doing. That is also love, but in the right order of God with His leading and guiding. Correction is still love. Releasing offense left my hand now open for healthy discipleship.

These are a few example of what I let go of, but there was more, and Im sure there will be more. The work is not done. I hope to still teach from a place of victory with the seasons Ive been able to process with the help of God. I know I am not done growing. There is more growth, maybe even more to let go of. I write this out to encourage you to release what is dying, to release what gives no room for what God wants to do in your life. I do want to add a little pressure to those who have said yes to the call, but have not been teachable or flexible for the work of God. It is worth what you’ve agreed with. It is a serving advantage that God will want you to let go of what could possibly choke out your desires that align with God, whatever that may be. Let go of it, and move forward in your race. He will surely mature you in your walk with your yes and your release.

I Found a God to Worship.

Did you know, I use to just tag along at church? I would come and listen all the way in the back. And wonder why people would raise their hands to God. Similar to how I saw in the concerts. I use to do the same at concerts. I didn’t understand the hands thing from either form of worship. I didn’t sing. I was an observer.

2010 San Francisco. Transformed.

I would respond to the alter and I would experience the power of God with the laying of hands. I was healed many times. Not always from a pain that was physical. I would experience peace. Something I would loose back in the world. I would loose peace, joy, kindness, I’d come back to experience this. I knew no Bible.

My season of a courted invitation to come closer and deeper with God came to an end when I made my choice to only give God a Sunday. I returned to my world, to do as I see fit, in my own ways, with my lust for the world, with no goals, with no growth, with no change. I would sink in myself and ask God to rescue me from a new feeling, sadness, sickness. Whatever it was, I do believe He came through.

One day I fell even more broken, something hit harder in my life, that God saw opportunity for me. See this pain was strong, and it wasn’t moving. I don’t know if I truly reached for God outside of Sunday. Unfortunately my pain hit on a Monday. I would literally roll around in my bed weeping. Breathing heavily in despair for days. Heartbreak and its side effects were crushing me. I thank God for repentance. For the first time I reached for Him personally and He showed up. He showed up in my filthy room. With my broken self. He, day by day led me through repentance. I didn’t know that word but I was transitioning.

There was a devotional book I would read to get some air. I would skip the worship parts, I still didn’t understand it, until I read the bible. This took me out from the observer seat. I would read page after page convicted and open for change. My first intention with the bible was for it to fix me and my mess but it transitioned to going after God.

Worship did not make sense until it became a life of worship, where He became King of my whole life, not just a Sunday. There was no looking back. I sought for a fixing, and I got more. I found me a very real GOD. The one that knows all, sees all, and is not limited by time or space. Look how close He has come, to find us. Look what Jesus has done for a people who doesn’t deserve it. He has been TRUE in my life and He became my reward. He replaced my brokenness for Him. He filled me with His Spirit and turned it All around.

He is the one that I worship. I boast of Him. That He took a broken girl, and made her stand and Hope again. I worship Him, with hands up, with hands down, in words, in song but most of all…with my life. He will always be worthy, the One I have found, exchanging pain and suffering for a God worthy of worship.

“I have told all your people about your justice. I have not been afraid to speak out, as you, O Lord, well know. I have not kept the good news of your justice hidden in my heart; I have talked about your faithfulness and saving power. I have told everyone in the great assembly of your unfailing love and faithfulness.” Psalms 40:9-10

Be Like the Woman at the Well

I love to read the Bible and learn something new, through a scripture I have already learned from. My first time reading about Rebekahs well encounter I was single and wanting a life of marriage. I asked God, to send me to the well just like He did with Rebekah before she married Isaac. I thank the Lord still for the success in that request.

Yesterday I read it again. Where Abraham sent his servant to find the wife for his son. He blessed His servant with success for the journey and the servant requested:

“O Lord, God of my master, Abraham,” he prayed. “Please give me success today, and show unfailing love to my master, Abraham.”

“See, I am standing here beside this spring, and the young women of the town are coming out to draw water. This is my request. I will ask one of them, ‘Please give me a drink from your jug.’ If she says, ‘Yes, have a drink, and I will water your camels, too!’—let her be the one you have selected as Isaac’s wife. This is how I will know that you have shown unfailing love to my master.”

Before he had finished praying, he saw a young woman named Rebekah coming out with her water jug on her shoulder. She was the daughter of Bethuel, who was the son of Abraham’s brother Nahor and his wife, Milcah.

Rebekah was very beautiful and old enough to be married, but she was still a virgin. She went down to the spring, filled her jug, and came up again.

Running over to her, the servant said, “Please give me a little drink of water from your jug.”

“Yes, my Lord,” she answered, “have a drink.” And she quickly lowered her jug from her shoulder and gave him a drink. When she had given him a drink, she said, “I’ll draw water for your camels, too, until they have had enough to drink.” So she quickly emptied her jug into the watering trough and ran back to the well to draw water for all his camels.”

The servant watched her in silence, wondering whether or not the Lord had given him success in his mission. Then at last, when the camels had finished drinking, he took out a gold ring for her nose and two large gold bracelets for her wrists.”

I read through the chapter and was planning on going to morning prayer at 7 am, but thought to read more, until it hit me. Rebekah showed up!! She showed up to the well. So I got up showed up to prayer. Same day I showed up to Pursuit Night at Lifesong and we experienced a new freedom in worship. God’s glory manifested in the crowd. The next day I said “I will show up”. It is that simple. To show up to the well. With the intention to meet with God’s fulfillment. Today is only my second day with this “Show up to the Well” mindset, and I have met the fulfillment of two events that I had prayed “God I’ll wait for you to open the door”. What else does God have for the woman at the well. Just keep Showing up and you’ll see you will be just as adorned as the woman at the well. Adorned with the Glory, adorned with opportunity, adorned with a promise fulfilled, adorned with ____ ( Let God fill in the blank with His fulfillment).

Just show up my friend and I pray now “O Lord, God of Abraham, please give them success for today”

What is your Assignment?

Have you ever wondered why you haven’t seen breakthrough? Why is it taking so long to see this prayer answered?

Could it be that we have not discerned the assignment?

Before Jesus was taken, events would be stirring for arrest and Jesus knew, and would say, It is not my time. When the Pharisees came to arrest Him, He knew it was not His time, he stirred up the Pharisees hearts. He preached truth and knew the effects. He knew outcomes. But when it was time, and He was finally arrested, He knew that outcome. He allowed the taunting, the abuse, the name calling. As they tested Him for the truth, truth that could’ve set Him free, that could’ve gained Him more followers, He stayed quite instead. He knew the times, He knew the assignment, He knew the plan.

We are always living in a very growing environment, Kids are growing, we are growing, life is changing. Each day can be unique, each month, each year each Era. Leaving room for adjustment and asking Holy Spirit, how do I approach this situation, this new day, this conversation etc. and pay attention to the repeats. What is on repeat. Do you keep hearing “God is Faithful” perhaps were being stretched to trust God more as we process. Another repeat could be “you are beautiful” I had this one come right on time to reveal that I am His, and I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I took it further when God gave me a dream about His heart for HIs creation. Then I discerned God is speaking against what the world says about His beauty. Not just against me, But against his designs. You are His design even as He makes you all brand new again. My favorite part is when He made sure I didn’t forget about “Handsome”. With that set up lesson, I stayed listening, and found myself seeing a little of what He can see in others. When it could not be seen in the natural, He revealed what Heaven sees in His people. This changed everything for me. This was prophetic, To see what God sees. When it is hidden. What has the world covered of you that God can see? I then knew I had to share his heart, and also adjust my eyes to what God sees. No more declaring what I see in the natural but declaring what God sees. That was the assignment. Jesus being King, was beat, ridiculed, left by many. But Heaven saw Him, as a Glorious King. Now we may be beat, and discouraged, and broken now, or even thriving on promise land, but what does Heaven see? What does Jesus see, and what is the assignment?

What is your assignment. There is a time, there is a plan, and there is a design.

The Gold Is Your Story

Ok, so to start, here is a little about me. I am creative, with a creative mind, I am expressive, talkative. I talk a lot actually. I share my discoveries and what I’ve learned and created, all this making story telling another of my favorite things to do. I pull from my true stories, and inspiring stories because there are lessons to learn and remember. There is plenty of gold to pull out and share. I believe that stories inspire. When I was young I was the observer and listener, learning and taking my own statistics in life, while doodling in between. But I am in the activated journey of living it out, learning and sharing and revealing the treasures I have found in life while still doodling in between. So this short post is to encourage you to remember that when you are living life, whether you are surviving, thriving or even in a season of observation, there is something to take from it. There is so much to discard too, But please hold on to the gold that you find on your journey. Share it amongst each other at tables, road trips, walks, fishing, and my favorite, coffee dates. This making each other rich in wisdom and inspiration.

Let’s Reconnect

This is my very first blog entry. I usually enjoy sharing my life on Instagram and Facebook, but I wanted to go back to my roots when social media was on its first steps into culture. I was a teenager who loved to journal almost everyday. It brought me a sense of importance as I wrote my life down on paper and on journaling sites. It was a courageous time for me, exposing all my feelings for who knows who to read. I enjoyed writing to my friends these really long crammed words, 3 page front to back letters everyday. No wonder I got my first D that year. Although it cost me a little drama (no secret is secure on paper). I managed to still journal consistently until one day I let it go. I was in a season where I found closure from my first heartbreak. I wanted to be free from feeling and reabsorbing old pain I had already processed and that’s where I stopped journaling. The gap between that teenage season of writing and now is almost 15 years. So here I am, all grown up, married and, and ready to open this chapter up to whoever will read. Oh and also there is a new twist to things old friends, I am a Christian blogger now. Here is the culture of writing, teaching, and creating things with Jesus.